Sometimes I feel hopeless. Jealous. Frustrated. This is one of those days. I'm human, and I'm weak, and I need God's strength more than ever right now. It seems every time I turn around, someone is announcing a pregnancy. Someone else is pregnant. Someone else is getting to experience our dream. And they SHOULD! They should get to experience God's miracles! But it gets me asking...why not us? Why can't it happen for us that easy? Why do WE have to experience struggle, then heartbreak and devastation, then more struggle?
But it's not for us to question. Jay and I are on our own journey that God has laid out for us. Our own path. God NEVER promised it would be easy and he NEVER EVER promised us he wouldn't give us more than we can handle. He is allowed to test us and try us, but we cannot question Him. Our sinful nature causes us to question - but we are supposed to just trust. And let's just call it like it is - that's HARD!
I'm having one of those negative days...one of those days where I just don't feel confident that the procedure worked. I'm doubting and I'm just an all around hot mess. But that's OK. There are going to be days like this. We just have to work through them. We get to have the comfort of knowing we aren't alone. That God has promised he will never leave or forsake us. Today more than ever I feel like I need prayer.
I lean today on Joshua 1:9, which reads "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
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